I need to learn to vent the right way.

I miss him all the time..

I was stopped two days ago while waiting for the bus about religion.

He was Christian.

Him: Do you go to church?

Me: No.

Him: Not even the Catholic churhc?

Me: No.

Him: Well, you should consider it, to save let Jesus Christ save you.

Me: I don't need to be saved. I don't participate in religions that are against the gay community. I believe in love, not religion.

Him: Oh, well here's a little thing -hands some pamphlet- that will hopefully change your mind.

Me: No thanks you're killing the world printing these things.

-smiles-

bus comes.

I'm practically the male in this family of mine...

every dude my sister brings to introduce, I size them and lift my eyebrow like ” WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU, SON?! YOU’LL NEVER BE GOOD ENOUGH FOR MY SISTER.” is screaming from my face. I don’t do it to be mean but then again I do. I’m highly protective of my sister and mom; YOU DON’T FUCK WITH MY FAMILY. Done deal.

So my mom is talking to someone..I don’t know how to take it. It’s not that I don’t want her to be happy but in reality, she always attracts the ones that aren’t worth her time. I know because I’ve seen it. My mom and I don’t have a great relationship but I can’t help being protective of her.

I would love to meet this man, give him the 411 on how it is if he fucks up.

my new year's resolution

was to keep in touch with ppl, go out more. i’ve constantly never answered txt messages and said i was too tired, too broke to go out. but now i realize that i don’t make enough memories with my friends; that saddens me.

i’ve always been anti-social. even as a kid i would have rather painted or read then hang out with other kids. i kept myself busy with watercolors and brushes. now to this day i sit on my piano or work on my canvases. i won’t go out. but i’ve come to realize the lonliness does takes it’s toll on me. too much of anything is not good for you. so i gathered my thoughts..and like last year, made a resolution. go out more. be a social butterfly for once. takes a lunch, a club, a movie, a nails day, lunch, kickback, and have fun. all in moderation of course. see, all those friends that still love me and care for me.

i have kept my resolution; went out with doug to have dinner at toi, went clubbing with my girls gg, vanessa, connie, yuri, tomorrow having dinner with those same girls, hanging out with cole after, then saturday doug is taking me to dinner, his treat.

life is good.

I believe in love, not religion. Religion just teaches us to hate.

I have let it go. Just holding on to what happened to me is bad for me. I've forgiven you, but I won't forget. I wish nothing but happiness; because I'm a better person because of you, stronger.

So, memories, I leave in you some box locked away, repressed from coming back to me, I've had enough of trying to figure out why.

Wish me nothing but happiness; I will surely not miss you.