I need to learn to vent the right way.

I miss him all the time..

I was stopped two days ago while waiting for the bus about religion.

He was Christian.

Him: Do you go to church?

Me: No.

Him: Not even the Catholic churhc?

Me: No.

Him: Well, you should consider it, to save let Jesus Christ save you.

Me: I don't need to be saved. I don't participate in religions that are against the gay community. I believe in love, not religion.

Him: Oh, well here's a little thing -hands some pamphlet- that will hopefully change your mind.

Me: No thanks you're killing the world printing these things.

-smiles-

bus comes.

I'm practically the male in this family of mine...

every dude my sister brings to introduce, I size them and lift my eyebrow like ” WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU, SON?! YOU’LL NEVER BE GOOD ENOUGH FOR MY SISTER.” is screaming from my face. I don’t do it to be mean but then again I do. I’m highly protective of my sister and mom; YOU DON’T FUCK WITH MY FAMILY. Done deal.

So my mom is talking to someone..I don’t know how to take it. It’s not that I don’t want her to be happy but in reality, she always attracts the ones that aren’t worth her time. I know because I’ve seen it. My mom and I don’t have a great relationship but I can’t help being protective of her.

I would love to meet this man, give him the 411 on how it is if he fucks up.

my new year's resolution

was to keep in touch with ppl, go out more. i’ve constantly never answered txt messages and said i was too tired, too broke to go out. but now i realize that i don’t make enough memories with my friends; that saddens me.

i’ve always been anti-social. even as a kid i would have rather painted or read then hang out with other kids. i kept myself busy with watercolors and brushes. now to this day i sit on my piano or work on my canvases. i won’t go out. but i’ve come to realize the lonliness does takes it’s toll on me. too much of anything is not good for you. so i gathered my thoughts..and like last year, made a resolution. go out more. be a social butterfly for once. takes a lunch, a club, a movie, a nails day, lunch, kickback, and have fun. all in moderation of course. see, all those friends that still love me and care for me.

i have kept my resolution; went out with doug to have dinner at toi, went clubbing with my girls gg, vanessa, connie, yuri, tomorrow having dinner with those same girls, hanging out with cole after, then saturday doug is taking me to dinner, his treat.

life is good.

I believe in love, not religion. Religion just teaches us to hate.

I have let it go. Just holding on to what happened to me is bad for me. I've forgiven you, but I won't forget. I wish nothing but happiness; because I'm a better person because of you, stronger.

So, memories, I leave in you some box locked away, repressed from coming back to me, I've had enough of trying to figure out why.

Wish me nothing but happiness; I will surely not miss you.

I will always have an appreciation for D'Angelo.

Video gets me EVERYTIME.

I have drifted from a couple of people..because I have noticed that it took me talking to them first to keep in touch. I don't know, but to me that just seems I'm having a friendship by myself if that's the case.

I have a friend who doesn't even bother to try and talk to me. It surprises me because I have a friend in Minnesota who hits me up at least a couple of times a week about the randomest things; but it counts.

There's a fault in me, I tend to get very anti-social; I prefer to be at home then go out. But I've decided to change that about me this year and have a social life. Whether it be a party, club, shopping, movies, a lunch, or even a cup of coffee. I need to do that because being by myself has taken its toll on me.

I just hope the people that are in my life care about genuinely like I care for them.

On the corner of main street
Just tryin' to keep it in line
You say you wanna move on and
You say I'm falling behind

Can you read my mind?
Can you read my mind?

I never really gave up on
Breakin' out of this two-star town
I got the green light
I got a little fight
I'm gonna turn this thing around

Can you read my mind?
Can you read my mind?

The good old days, the honest man;
The restless heart, the Promised Land
A subtle kiss that no one sees;
A broken wrist and a big trapeze

Oh well I don't mind, if you don't mind
'Cause I don't shine if you don't shine
Before you go, can you read my mind?

It’s funny how you just break down
Waitin' on some sign
I pull up to the front of your driveway
With magic soakin' my spine

Can you read my mind?
Can you read my mind?

The teenage queen, the loaded gun;
The drop dead dream, the Chosen One
A southern drawl, a world unseen;
A city wall and a trampoline

Oh well I don't mind, if you don't mind
'Cause I don't shine if you don't shine
Before you jump
Tell me what you find when you read my mind

Slippin’ in my faith until I fall
You never returned that call
Woman, open the door, don't let it sting
I wanna breathe that fire again

She said I don't mind, if you don't mind
'Cause I don't shine if you don't shine

Put your back on me
Put your back on me
Put your back on me

The stars are blazing like rebel diamonds cut out of the sun
When you read my mind

It's been raining in LA for the past week. I absolutely love this weather.

Look at me. So I had a wife, beautiful, like you, who tells me I worry too much. Who tells me I ought to smile more. Who gambles and gets in deep with the sharks... Look at me! One day, they carve her face. And we have no money for surgeries. She can't take it. I just want to see her smile again, hm? I just want her to know that I don't care about the scars. So... I stick a razor in my mouth and do this...to myself. And you know what? She can't stand the sight of me! She leaves. Now I see the funny side. Now I'm always smiling!

At some point, I want to move from California. Just take a breather from all these things: school, my family, friends, work. I think everyone needs a break from everything. I wouldn't mind living in New York or Chigago. I want to live in a place where it snows in Winter and you see the flowers grow in Spring. I don't need a huge apartment. I want one that looks like an art studio.

One day...I'll get there.

Murs

Call me...Dr. Harleen Quinzel...also known as..

Harley Quinn

No animal could ever be so cruel as man, so artfully, so artistically cruel.

this would be very interesting. I would love to see him play this character.

I can’t believe what you said to me
Last night when we were alone
You threw your hands up
Baby you gave up, you gave up

I can’t believe how you looked at me
With your James Dean glossy eyes
In your tight jeans with your long hair
And your cigarette stained lies

Could we fix you if you broke?
And is your punch line just a joke?

I’ll never talk again
Oh boy you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

I can’t believe how you slurred at me
With your half wired broken jaw
You popped my heart seams
On my bubble dreams, bubble dreamsa

I can’t believe how you looked at me
With your Johnnie Walker eyes
He’s gonna get you and after he’s through
There’s gonna be no love left to rye

And I know that it’s complicated
But I’m a loser in love
So baby raise a glass to mend
All the broken hearts
Of all my wrecked up friends

I’ll never talk again
Oh boy you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless so speechless

I’ll never love again,
Oh friend you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

How?
Haaaa-oooo-wow?
H-ooow?
Wow

Haaaa-oooo-wow?
H-ooow?
Wow

And after all the drinks and bars that we’ve been to
Would you give it all up?
Could I give it all up for you?

And after all the boys and girls that we’ve been through
Would you give it all up?
Could you give it all up?

If I promise to you boy
That I’ll never talk again
And I’ll never love again
I’ll never write a song
Won’t even sing along

I’ll never love again
So speechless
You left me speechless, so speechless
Why you so speechless, so speechless?

Will you ever talk again?
Oh boy, why you so speechless?
You’ve left me speechless

Some men may follow me
But you choose “death and company”
Why you so speechless? Oh oh oh

this is my beautiful friend Cassandra who fully agrees with me. We love our bodies, but we do have out moments of doubt.

I love you Cass.

Women should feel beautiful. Trust me, I have my bad days but I snap out of it and then move on.

I have an appreciation for my body in pictures I have taken myself. No, I don't have professional camera, but that does not stop me from snapping away. I want to take pictures of my friends, naked. They need to feel comfortable in their skin.

When I post pictures of myself in nearly nude/nude it is not to get attention, but a way of appreciating the female's beautiful body.

I was once told I couldn't speak
so I let my feelings out with painful weeps
words left uspoken, feelings unseen
all because I was told not to speak
and all the while I grew up lonely
had friends all around me but they were all unworthy
because I couldn't express myself truthfully
couldn't be me when I'm s'posed to be.
A few years gone by and I still hold everything in
Right here, in my heart, right here within
And I know at some point I will let go
and you will hear me, and it'll show
what it does to a person, when they just can't let go.

-KimBreezy

Atmosphere, definitely love them.

I have a love for Slug..you people just don't understand.

Even the sun goes down heroes eventually die
Horoscopes often lie and sometimes "y"
nothin' is for sure nothin' is for certain nothin' lasts forever
But until they close the curtain
it's him & I Aquemini

I used to have Tumblr.

Deleted it yesterday. Someone just kept harassing me for the things I've posted..made assumptions, said nasty things. I did not join Tumblr for that shit. Won't lie though, I'll miss my followers on there, there was truly some beautiful, genuine people on there that cared, I'll miss that.

So this is to start new, start fresh. I need a place where I can write what I want, post what I want without being crucified. I am not perfect, I am not everyone's cup of tea, but that does not mean that people should be put down or harassed via internet.

If you like what I post, cool, if you don't cool.

But if you stay, enjoy :]